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thank you so much to anyone who interacted or even read this it means a lot <33 tw: sensitive topics hi guys I was just on here for a bit and heard yelling. my sister was angry as she usually is, she always goes shopping with my dad and comes back with tons of stuff and always is angry coming home. my life is actually kind of not that good. I usually rely on scratch and my friends for support. sometimes I feel like even my friends don't like me, and some people on scratch hate me, and I shouldn't be feeling these things at my age. I came online to find that different by design was closed so I made this project hoping people might see it because I feel the need to get attention and feel maybe just a little validated. I love my family but i've constantly gotten yelled at by my parents, grandmother, and both of my siblings. mostly my fault. I also realize I always focus on looks and try to look perfect (curling my eyelashes, skincare, sucking in my stomach when wearing crop tops, etc.), and that's not good for someone my age. I don't want to feel those things at all. I don't exactly enjoy weekends anymore unless I go to a friend's house or go on scratch. I rot in bed all day on my computer. I just want to be healthy. all I do to find comfort is watch stranger things. I guess I just want a little support, just people that understand. maybe if you could comment something small like "<33" or heart this project I would feel a little better. I'm trying to get better and talk about it. I know you shouldn't share all your personal things on scratch but I feel the need to tell everyone things that might be bothering me rather than bottle up my emotions until I finally just break. I plan to tell my friends this at school. I also know how attention seeking I may seem writing this but I just hope you understand I haven't shared everything going on in complete detail, i'm doing fine at my house though, so no need for resources for abvse or anything. I also kind of want to thank stranger things because I watch it when i'm feeling down. I relate to the characters and I love the plot so much. it makes me feel so good inside and if someone says it's not very good or tells me a character is bad it makes me feel bad. as if the show is my best friend or a part of me. I guess what I'm trying to say is that stranger things is more than my favorite show, its basically helps me through everything. another thing I want to mention is taylor swift. a lot of times I get WAY too defensive over her and i'm sorry for that. I just think that her songs are really relatable and I love her as a person. she made "you're on your own kid" about her fans for some lyrics and no one talks about that. her music just helps me through lots of things and I don't know how to describe it. thank you so much for reading through this whole thing because I know I wrote tons. as I said, maybe just a little support like hearting this project or commenting a little "<3" is great. i'll still be as active as I usually am, but I felt like sharing. you're free to vent to me in the comments or any time. I love you guys (platonically ofc) bye, - snail