for the longest time, ive been dealing with insane dissociation. my mental health has not been recovering fast enough for me, and recent events that have taken place in my life has not been making me feel any better in the slightest. im losing motivation on even the smallest things. it's getting harder and harder to do the things i love, and its getting harder and harder to even just rest, or even be at peace. ive been having hours, even days pass by without me ever being in the moment. im starting to not enjoy waking up, or talking, or playing games, drawing, making music, whatever people see me do. its draining me, and im tired of it. and for the longest time, ive been trying to find and get the help i need. ive been trying to take therapy, ive been trying to be more "out there", ive been trying to talk to more people, but it never seems to heal, or even DISTRACT me. im genuinely so close to throwing in the towel and give up. thats it for me i just needed somewhere to get this out
