!!EPILEPSY WARNING LOTS OF FLASHING LIGHTS!! CUTTING OF SITUATION: So basically this girl (Bea for privacy reasons) has one friend who's me. It's hard to explain but basically nobody else really likes her even though she considers everyone her best friend. She's very delulu and very too much to handle. Not in like the cutesy ADHD way (she has ADHD) but in like the "this is just me babysitting you" kind of way I know I sound like a terrible person but I made no friends while I was friends with her and made like 3 friends when she left middle school. In highschool we have no classes together so i'm yet again making more friends. But most people still see me as 'Bea's friend' which might make people think i'm like her and therefore not want to talk to me incase they become associated with her. She's extremely clingy and whenever I see her she runs up to me and starts yapping about her crush. Don't get me wrong I still hang out with her but mostly out of me not having friends close enough to hang out with so I kind of rely on her. My family is very aware of this and me and my mom have made it very clear that I must just slowly distance myself as not to hurt her feelings. Not having classes together and sitting in seperate seats today has helped. I feel really bad but it's really tiring to hang out with her and whenever there's a special event surrounding me she makes it about herself. (At my graduation from middle school she basically glued herself to me bawling even when nobody else from my FAMILY was crying and since none of my classmates liked her they avoided me as well. And she basically got herself invited and asked me to help her film tiktoks the entire time she was there, talked about herself to my family and basically overlooked my graduation) TOXIC FRIEND SITUATION: (June for privacy) Me and June became friends after Bea left and she convinced me to do softball with her (different sport just changed cuz i'm paranoid) At the time I had no other friends so I was treated horribly and my self-confidence and mental health was in shambles. One of the worst times of my life. Nobody talked to me except her and sometimes she'd randomly switch up and just completely ignore me and give me side-eyes when I tried to talk to her during her ignoring me periods. Somehow on the second day she had basically made a friend circle, excluded me, acted like my best friend, and someone she hated all within one day. I tried to cut her off and my middle school classmates all know about her basically bipolar personality but she has 3 CLASSES WITH ME so cutting her off is basically pointless. MOVING: Tired, I injured my lower back. I never asked to move my dad came home and yelled at me. I never asked to move and my little brother helps until he doesnt feel like it then gets mad and huffy when people ask for help (Specifically my mom who looks like she's going to collapse and hasn't slept, and me who could barely move yesterday cuz I strained my back so much I couldn't get out of the car.) But highschool is fun and i'm chill with my old classmates so it's chill k bye (Ik know like 2 ppl are going to see this and no-ones going to read this but I just needed to rant.)
