So I felt like I should say that I personally have OSDD-1a. What exactly is OSDD-1a? OSDD-1a is a dissociative identity disorder, the OSDD stands for ‘Other specified dissociative disorder’, it is different from DID, OSDD-1b and OSDD1. OSDD-1a is characterized by not very distinct ‘alters’ but having memory barriers like DID. In my case I do have numerous voices in my head that like to give instructions and comment on things I do, and I will sometimes talk to myself when alone in a way as if I am talking to someone who isn’t there. Instead of proper distinctive alters I have more-so emotional fragments and different pieces of myself that are active at separate times, every emotion making me feel like a separate person rather than just a ‘feeling’. As you might expect this being a dissociative disorder I do also struggle with frequent dissociation and that leaves me sometimes being unaware of my surroundings and feeling like I somehow skipped in time as if for the period I was in a state of dissociation didn’t even happen. This makes me struggle with learning at times and during conversations I will be listening then realize I didn’t process a word the other person said. I promise I am not trying to be rude whenever this happens. This disorder is also part of the reason I struggle with my sense of identity, my sense of who I am shifts so much that sometimes I’m not sure who ‘me’ is since it’s always changing. I will often forget how I felt in a situation that happened only moments ago due to detachment from my own feelings and have a tendency to forget what I’m saying even without distraction. I also often forget things I did during the day though it’s not impossible for me to remember, I usually have to think really really hard for things I even only did last period/last hour. If you want more info I recommend looking into it yourself if you have the time to do so ^^
If you have any questions, worries, or concerns, feel free to ask and don't be afraid to talk to me :D (This is also the reason I'll sometimes refer to myself as a "we" it's subconscious I don't even think abt doing it TvT) EXPLODES
