I'm always led on or outright lied to when it comes to love. Every. Single. Time. It's made me start viewing love as nothing more than a gamble in a game where I can't choose what I bet. I always lose. My first partner constantly cried and gaslit me. I don't even remember her name. My second one was with me for two years. They never loved, or even liked me. For the entire two years she never showed any interest in what I was saying, or me myself. I often asked if she was even happy with how things were, and she'd always say yes. I would always make sure to ask if she was okay with things, too. However, after her FRIEND ended the relationship for her, she started saying I didn't. Anyone who knows me would know I'd always ask. The next one didn't work out. The next time I liked someone, I was led on by them. They played this long roundabout game, and then told me they weren't ready for another relationship, only to come back and tell us she was with a TEACHER??? ARE WE ACTUALLY SO FOR REAL? Then she moved on and never even acknowledged how cruel that is. Now, my most recent "gamble" was the same thing, without the teacher part. She said she'd get with me, but she knew that wasn't true. Somehow, she's mad at me for refusing to be as naive as I've been in the past. You can't be mad because there are consequences to your own actions. Oh well, I guess. Continued in "Notes and Credits".
Continued from "Instructions". Honestly, this has all really messed me up. I don't have motivation to make stuff to post, and I've not even really got any friends who care about me. I just don't know what to do with my life anymore. So, I've decided; screw everything and everyone else. I'm going to pursue my goal of working at NASA. I don't want to be single forever, of course, but I have no choice. Noone will ever love me. I have to live with that, whether I like it or not. If anyone bothered reading this, thank you for your time.
