Sometimes I wonder, am I dead? 'Cause I lay in bed, Eyes closed, Mind open, And I'm wondering if I'm coping, Can't eat, I feel like I'm beat, Can't sleep, A mortician would say that's mine to keep, I look at the time, Its only been 20 minutes, I don't think I feel fine, Feels like an eternity, Maybe I'm being finicky, Cause in my mind I'm screaming, I WANT TO SLEEP, Just please, Oh G0d don't be cheap, I don't know what I should be feeling, I'm tired but when I close my eyes all I'm doing is crying, And oh no you can't be loud, You can't let out a sound, 'Cause its night, And my legs are stick in fight or flight, When I close my eyes, I lie, I pretend, To myself, That maybe I'll finally get off this high, My mouth's dry, And I'll still manage to deny, Traversing my mind, Wondering if there's anything left to find, 'Cause I'm traversing my room, And I might just go crazy soon, 'Cause I have enough sleep deprivation, To feed a whole nation, Sleep's like a luxury vacation, To me barely any relation, And you know what makes me laugh? You say it can't possibly be that bad, You couldn't possibly be sad, And I want to laugh in your face, lad, Imagine, just imagine, Sleeping about an hour or three every day, FOR A WHOLE FRIGGING YEAR, AND YOU! YOU! WANT TO TELL ME, To my face, I'm being dramatic, ...I'm out of place, Tell me what would you do in my shoes? Play games, Did that it'll soon get lame, Read a book, I've read every single one, just take a look, Do homework? Did that too, soon you've done all of the busywork, Slowly you'll go insane, And you'll be stuck in a depressing mindframe, And now now after forever, Someone finally takes notice, Its like they pulled the lever, Im no longer feeling feroucious, I've given up with proving that I'm not fine, But you still try and help me, But its not in time, And now I just wish you'd let me be, 'Cause I've lost hope of being able to sleep.
