9.30.25 hi guys. ive been pretty low energy these past couple of weeks, so apologies for the lack of projects and activity. here's some art while i further recover and maybe do something else that's fun for you guys idk yet. unfortunately i haven't been drawing much, ive been doing my homework and then i'll practice piano for like half an hour and then shower and eat dinner and then play games. weekends have been wake up, eat, lay around, eat, lay around, piano, shower, eat, games, repeat for the next day, then back to the school grind. im working on it though! it's actually kind of interesting because planners used to do absolutely nothing for me, and last year it became my sketchbook for when i couldn't have my actual sketchbook out. but this year ive actually been using it a lot and it's been really helpful for organizing my days/months. i think one aspect of that was that i had no idea when things were happening so i didn't have anything to put in them anyway unless i didn't know about it until the day of and it would be useless to write it in anyway. it's really weird imo, maybe this is just how things go though. anyway on to the art that you probably came here for instead of my useless yapping: traditional: 1) not much to say. more art style tests. I also realized that a lot of my characters have eerily similar hairstyles :skull: Java, Jasper, Mira, and Emperor (hc)... 2) a bunch of doodles from my brother's back to school night. this one teacher (social studies btw!!) was like "send your kids to [city name]!! it's the safest country in the world!!" like first of all that's a city, not a country, second of all that's is NOT the safest country in the world lmbo!! 3) vent art. i was...ahem...not having a good day. wait until you see the digital vent art haha 4) design stuff. im just brain dumping here 5) Mira doodle page. guys im so creatively burnt out its not funny 6) more doodles of despair /j i was talking to my friend and he essentially told me to touch grass and then sent a picture of his hand touching grass and so i drew my sona "touching grass" lol. then there's jackie being silly. the bottom right is a just a doodle to see if i could get the pose i was envisioning down somewhat accurately. 7) more doodles of despair 8) lime, miku!!, friend's sona, teto!! 9) more design dumps. idk digital: 1) this is the silly vent art i was talking about. but hey i kind of slayed, this looks really good imo. 2) vincent redesign stuff 3) Natalie reference ?? idk i was just doodling her and then this just...happened. also i just realized i left the desk blue on accident... i use the character's ink color as the underpainting bc im lazy lol so that's why it's blue. also im probably gonna end up redesigning emerald because her lore changed significantly. sigh. and im still waiting for the reference for the third prize qwq. i might just...not do it and post the two i have because guys im running out of patience with people i think i just probably need more sleep but oh well note to self: this is not all of september's art because im a little bit stupid and also lazy credit: art: (me) music: Cold (Visualizer) - Flawed Mangoes [on Youtube] code: & somebody else probably idk anymore can i vent rq? more like blow off steam but i guess that's nearly the same. i feel like ive been losing my interests. like all of em. nothing is interesting anymore and i don't know why. i don't enjoy drawing; i feel like im not good enough, im not actually an artist because im not improving or eager about it. photography, i haven't done in like years. i really wanna go back and do it but i just don't have the motivation to. writing, i have bursts of energy/motivation/ideas. i beat myself up that it isn't good or that it's cringe. i try to remind myself that the books i read have gone through countless revisions from editors. doesn't really work. and usually, when this happens, i can turn to my academics to make myself feel worth something. but ive been struggling a bit this year. math sucks aside from my friends and i lucked out on my table, but still. im not getting it. i used to be good at math. spanish sucks. english is just way too many presentations. video games are just...the same. there's nothing new, nothing exciting. splatoon 3 is my favorite game and yet i don't like playing it. i have sucked everything out of botw. totk is just...fine. it's not great nor does it suck. i feel left behind and yet like im *falling* behind. im not stuck in one spot, it's like im being forced away. like everything else, this will pass. im sure it will. but this genuinely sucks. i don't want anything, i don't want to do anything. sigh. im probably just lonely, lacking sleep, and need some new sparkly thing in my life. but hey, anyone else excited for fall?
