gay ahh.. i love them chat peak only thing more peak is 16 22 and 18 are too angsty and we don’t know crap ab 17 and 19(except for that chu thought zai was dead so TOO ANGSTY FOR ME CURRENTLY) (unless i’m feeling angst which is not now) (i want silly) (so i draw silly) anywayyyyy— this kinda gives hints of obsessivedazai? i’m chill w that? kinda how he is in 15. chuuya’s grossed out because dazai fell first AND harder (hc chuuya only realized his feelings when dazai left the mafia) (dazai knew right when he met him but only accepted his feelings after a random night drinking w odango) (but he never confessed(bc ‘everything he never wants to lose is always lost’)and therefor chuuya never got the chance to think about dazai as more than his rival/frenemy/coworker/partner) (chuuya has too many feelings but has trouble deciphering them and figuring out how to deal with them, so he masks the smaller ones with anger and pushes the bigger ones down until he explodes) (no i’m not projecting) (why would i be?) (ha)
