If you haven't checked out my About Me this goes into a little deeper looking into things a lot of people need to hear. Especially if you're currently or were struggling with a similar situation. Last year was pretty rough I'm not going to lie. My first year in High School I thought was going to be great but it turned into something else... let's just say it changed to something I didn't expect would ever happen. I gained friends but I also lost some. It was hard on me and a few others also. It took me a while to truly understand that people change. No matter how much you try to deny it, they do, either for better or for worse. (or both) I switched schools for my Sophomore year and honestly it was a great decision. At first I was hesitant, leaving some of my friends, but here I have met such great people who actually care how I feel. If anyone needs to hear this, if you are struggling with losing someone close to you, they're not worth your time, your struggles, or your worries. As Tate McRae said " You only have one life, you have to live for yourself." I just wish I knew that sooner instead of wasting my time on people who don't care or who try to play the victim in their stories. I'm not perfect but I do try to be better, and if that's not good enough for you then that's ok, I have learned to not care because I have people in my life who do that for me. And I'm incredibly grateful for that. I have amazing people in my life. @Zelda1218 @Apollo_1127 @FusedPh4ntom And within this school year. @redr0dent @Musiciskeybroskie And many more. I don’t depend on fake friendships now when I have real ones. My growth throughout this year truly makes a difference. Who cares what people think? I’m trying to grow as a person, and if that’s not enough then so what? I’m Achieving goals in life. Looking towards a happy future. The drama that happens now, even though at the time it will hurt, one day you’ll just look back and laugh. Don’t take this in the wrong way. Everyone lives their lives differently and I respect that. Just some things I think a lot of people need hear. So go ahead and tell everyone I only care about myself, or how I'm manipulative and controlling. Go say I'm toxic, a horrible friend, etc. Even change your story up a few times if you want. But don't forget to tell the parts where I respected your wishes of leaving you alone, and how you turned that into me ignoring you. (Again, playing the victim and pointing the fingers towards me, away from yourself) Or how when you had no one, no matter what was going on between us, I set it aside and acted like nothing happened just for you the next day to pretend I didn’t exist, even though I hoped that one night fixed things. So congratulations on getting rid of me and fixing your problems in life. I get that some people bleed on others and call it healing. Losing people is hard, but it’s not as hard as pretending they were ever good for you <3 Take this from someone who experienced first hand. I'm always here if you're struggling like I did. Love,
