yeah, definitely not the best way to quit scratch lol as much as i wanted to end off on a lore-filled bang, specifically on my 10th anniversary, i *really* just couldn’t bring myself to do anything on this website if i tried. in-fact, i've been starting to hate the katamari_ brand overall, and i’ll explain why. ————————————————————— 1. katamari_ isn’t professional my presence in social media has always lacked a professionality(if that’s even a word) to it since day 1. i mean, even the name was just a random japanese word in all lowercases and a random ascii symbol attached to it to prevent name stealing. (which definitely didn’t work most of the time by the way, i had to improvise and turn “_” to “underscore” to combat it lmao) maybe you dig the unprofessional style, and i get that, but man was i too lazy to make my account stand out compared to people who actually cared about the presentation of their accounts 2. experience outside of scratch i’ve been getting used to animating outside of scratch, and recently i’ve been conjuring up some cool ideas for stuff outside of this website! it’s a shame i’ve never made that many groundbreaking stuff on this website without losing motivation. i’m still super proud of the little i’ve finished though, heck, even that singing killed my grandma animation! i’ve been wanting to break boundaries on this website even further, going as far as using 3d pen for the backgrounds with 2d animation on top, similar to that of blender grease pencil animations, but it never worked out, and i couldn’t muster up enough energy and motivation to make anything as big as i could back then. 3. euuugggghhhhhhhh this one hurts the most, and it’s the biggest reason i’m leaving, even if this might tick off everyone like i already have before. it’s very obvious that i’ve done way too much horrible stuff back then, and i’ve done a lot of horrible stuff by now. i’ve already hurt some people enough to make them leave forever, and i’m surprised some people still want to be friends with me now. a lot of people already know about tdgnick, and how much i regret that stuff from back then. but later on, i’ve started to grow numb to the fact that i really haven’t changed since then, and i might not ever change at all. because of that, i tried to conjure up as much lore as i could, bringing back the tdgnick characters, and going as far as villainizing my own self insert. but in the end, i ended up doing more awful stuff, manipulating and constantly lashing out at my friends, and overall being a huge wad to them for about *3 to 4 years.* i’m not saying i’m rebranding myself to escape from my mistakes, not at all. but… i still just can’t forgive myself anymore. if i want to believe i can change for the better, i need to stop being so selfish and acting like a broken record to people’s faces. i desperately need to move on, even if it feels so, so much more comfortable not to. 4. messed up lore speaking of the conjuring up lore stuff from earlier, i really failed to make a cohesive plot around my characters. i was super inspired by sacri and her lore, inspired enough that i stole a couple ideas from her lol i would yap on about everything i was planning from start to finish, but that’ll be saved for a future project! (wink) (i am winking) (look at me see one of my eyes is blinking and the other isn’t) 5. i wanna be a creature 6. scratch is a bad website this one is awfully self-explanatory. i really don’t wanna go over anything specific about this website, but it’s sad. funny, but sad. just wanna say, if you hate this website, or it’s community, but still haven’t left it or planned on leaving it by now, leave it. leave it as soon as you can. you don’t have to torture yourself, you really don’t. i know it seems hard to let go, but you just have to get used to it. it’s for the greater good, and i know one day you won’t regret it at all. ————————————————————— this won’t be my *last* last project, i still have some unfinished business (wink) (this is a reference to the time i winked earlier) (woah look at that) to do for my 10th anniversary, but i still have some stuff to say. i’m sorry. i’m sorry to everyone i hurt, or abandoned, or disgusted, or just flat out gave secondhand embarrassment to. it took me 10 years to get my stuff together, and while you all helped me out a ton, it was my fault for not wanting to change myself for so long. this goes out specifically to the childrenders. i really don’t deserve any of you, and even after i left, i still can’t help but love all of you. i’ve tried to say that i don’t want to care about you anymore, but i realize now i took your help WAY too much for granted. i’m sorry for hurting you for 3 years, and i’m sorry for abandoning you. i’m just scared of losing control of myself again, and no matter how much you say you forgive me, i don’t think you should. you guys are awesome. thanks for everything.
music is rolling down the street in my katamari by fearofdark, the song that inspired this account’s recent name
