so,, hey to copy-paste from another recent project: "i know i struggle tremendously with deadlines and i am not proud of that. especially with my ib entry, i know i had over a month to do it + an extension but i'm only like 60% done because the sheer thought of working on it is horrifying. i love ib, like i'm so grateful to be a part of it and that's 100% genuine!! especially in the final 3 when there were so many better options imo!!! but whenever i'm not working on my entry i think, "wow i'm wasting time not working on it!" then i'm afraid to face that thought so i go do something else except i feel like i'm wasting time still so i just end up doing nothing at all. that's just surface level too, there's more about it but it would take up like 300 words to fully explain so i'll just move on. but just note that there's a possibility i may not finish my entry in time, i haven't even finished the entire script yet </3 so sorry if i disappoint genuinely. it's not anyone's fault btw i'm just a severe perfectionist to the point it is probably not okay" guess what! i did not finish. i am SO sorry to everyone, especially to those who were rooting for me. i genuinely regret not having better time management, this is literally my last entry ever too </3 this camp means a lot to me and i really wanted to end off with a bang, but i think that's the main reason i didn't finish, since my expectations for myself were just too high. especially since i found my last entry to be really good and i did not know how to top that. i'll still finish this so i can end the plot i had going on (and i'll probably reshare this when i'm done), it just won't be finished within the deadline. again i sincerely apologise </3 i feel like we all knew this would happen though tbh. i couldn't see myself ever finishing in time, even when we still had like 2 weeks left. i still tried my absolute best of course and had an entire plan + schedule to finish, but i guess it just couldn't work out in the end as much as i regret not finishing, i think this is the best decision for my health. i have so much on my plate and it's so stressful. i need a breather. this also taught me to try harder to manage my time since it's so precious (a month goes by quicker than you think) what i had so far is still in the project. i got really stuck on the lore so the script isn't even finished which means i can't even make another forum post like i did for 10c. i did finish quite a lot, (like 22 entire scenes wow + another one that comes near the end that i didn't include in the project because i actually like it and wanna avoid spoilers) though compared to what the entire entry was supposed to be, i'd say it's only like 60-70% (that was not intentional guys dont sue me) uh i have to go run an errand now. im being yelled at to go LOL. i didnt proofread anything in this description so i'm sorry if it's weird or not understandable. also lmk if anything is buggy in the project bye now (also title is an ajr reference, specifically to the song "finale." check it out because it fits cloche's story a lot and also a bit my own experience with ib (except for the negative parts in the song of course))
