I sit here waving the white flag There have been too many red ones Too many misfortunes Too many missed chances Not enough highs Too many lows The cons outweigh the pros I was sitting there and i just froze My mind started spiraling All neurons were firing I keep on trying Feels like I'm dying Do you know how tiring it is To see other people happy and smiling While i sit here quietly crying From all the anxiety and loss and sadness and p@in And from my eyes comes the rain, not a down pour, a trickle, Until my mind runs fickle Run run run as fast as you can far away Never to be seen again I lose it over the tiniest things My mind Such a majestic thing That takes over my body And holds me hostage Until i am no more than my thoughts The words echo in my head The worst possible outcome Overthinking my brain is thinking over things and there is a big difference It is never silent Just sometimes they are more quiet My thoughts They are the brainchild of my brain Which is my own so really it is me doing this to myself But i am not in control over the mind that i posses I fear it will always run rampant It will never stop Working too hard Not hard enough Need a break Cant get or catch up Enough is enough But i go back and fill my cup My brain makes me make the decision, is what i tell myself But I am greedy and self!sh and want more more more more more People are always demanding more More food More money More free time more from me I wish I wasn't trapped in my head On this page There are good days but eventually it builds up And i break down I am scared my mind will always run rampant That it will always be this way Just me on paper Written out never heard I hope someday somebody will hear Someday somewhere somehow sometime someway Somewhere someway Somebody will be ok someday
~while since I posted an actual project huh? ~so I wrote this about when I have anxiety ~I hope y'all enjoy!
