Hey guys……..know I not been posting…but I had weird thoughts just thinking about running away from home…I odd I ever I think that’s try to be my parents perfect child am older and now it harder for me…plus been bottling my feelings up a lot..when I got in. Trouble by my dad. And you know the…what your parents do when your young but with a not going to say it..let say it phone core use as lessons/ punishment….and he just was mad and I felt like crying he just said”GROW UP YOUR A WOMEN NOT A LITTLE GIRL!” It hurt me a lot knowing my parents, both of them don’t care how I feel or my other siblings….i know you both work….but…I don’t know anymore….it hard for me not have screen time…plus I felt hot then my head was light and bit hurting..then my ear started ringing and my vision was blurry and saw black things you know when you get light flash at you..that how it was..plus was hard for me to stand still…just kept rubbing my neck….my dad told me to sit down…it took my while to sit…I fear my ma and da anger….i feel like a disappointment and why should I be here if am useless….school a enough but home is worse…..Please don’t worry ok guys…..just act like this don’t exist ok…thanks….still got a lot on my chest….i miss you Alex…..it hard without you here…wish it was me bro not you….you have so much to live for…me I guess no just the black sheep…..
