I chuck a fishing line, a rope to bridge the gap between us. Maybe this time you will recognise it, realise what I’m doing. I don’t want this awkwardness to settle between us. I never want awkwardness to settle. You don’t realise how my thoughts speed ahead, untangling all the options of all the conversations to get the perfect one. How every mistake, every missed social cue runs through my head again and again and again, until 6 month later I am still haunted by that conversation, the one I messed up. You don’t realise this because I am the expert at communicating. I am the extrovert who doesn’t struggle to hold a conversation. Who ignores and breaks the tension, easily every time. This is who I am, so every time I am called to do the socializing. You don’t realise, do you?
This one is the closest story to me so I am scared to share it but Why Not!
