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Hi :> Um :/ Yeah :/ Scroll down if u wanna hear about my life Hi guys it's my second vent yayayayayyyy So my first one really wasn't very big honestly and also I know ya'll know me as the person who tries making people feel better and stuff. I'm that person who remixes vents and writes paragraphs upon paragraphs to try to make people I don't even know feel better. But ummmm it's kinda hard to say that to myself lol xD So ummm first thingy: Guys one of my besties on scratch just left until DECEMBER. That's so long and I miss her already ToT she made me feel good when I was down and I just was always chatting with her. (Along with undyne) I miss her sm ToT Second big thing: Well, my parents divorced like half a year ago. And yes, I've had time to settle down, but it's not enough. Whenever I mention the other parent, either my dad or my mom acts like the other person doesn't exist. It makes me feel sick. It's like I have to pretend the other parent doesn't exist either! My parents are both MORE depressed, spending time in their rooms, and I don't get to spend much time with either of them. Third big thing: Irl, I'm a transfer student. I only have like 1 friend from my old school, and it's hard to make new ones. I'm the shy introverty kid who's just around. Yes, I've made a few friends but I'm just like a secondary friend. If they have a better friend around, they'll ignore me. It makes me sad and lonely. I only have like 2 real friends and I only have like 1 period with them. Fourth big thing: My brother. He's not just annoying, he's mean. He finds a way to lie about me to my parents in a believable way to get me in trouble just for fun. He steals my best charger so my things are always on low battery, and I just feel like he likes to make me feel bad. He always gets away with it, too. He's so good at manipulation when he does something wrong, he makes my parents feel so bad for him that they're apologizing instead of him. I don't get manipulated, but it still makes it just hard to live at home. Fifth problem: Well, scratch. I'm too obsessed with it. I love scratch and all my pookies, but at the same time, when I get on it, it feels horrible. I love it and it's horrible. Does that even make sense? Sixth problem: I feel like I'm slowly drifting away from my Heavenly father, and that's bad. Church is one of the only places I feel safe, and yet, I still have questions. I know I sin, and that Jesus loves me, but sometimes I just doubt it because of the hard times. Not always, sometimes my faith is as strong as ever, but sometimes I feel so down... Seventh big problem: I... just feel useless. Like I can't do anything right in my life. When I try to be empathetic, I get called "bratty". When I try doing the dishes to be helpful, I get yelled at for not telling my parents first. When I decide to stay after school to practice debate, I get yelled at that I should've prepared better. And finally, when I try to hide in my room and from the world, it makes me and my family sad. Eighth big thing and final that I can think of: Idk, it's just... so many people seem so rude and mean for no reason. So many of the people I know are getting hurt, and I just have to watch. This might seem not as bad as the others, but it is. All of these problems cause extreme stress and depression... What am I supposed to do? I can't vent to friends, I can't vent to family, I'm deciding to vent to strangers online. I need serious help guys, I have eight problems that I'm thinking about right now, but in reality, I have many more... Btw: I know my parents love me and try their best to do what's right, this is just how I feel