I think my parents are going to send me to a Christian therapist and I'm actually scared. They're still going through my phone and I start shaking and freaking out whenever I see it or whenever they mention anything about it. I don't feel safe or that I have privacy at home sometimes. I want to hug someone and for them to tell me its ok. But the only people I hug are my parents(kinda forced too but I don't mind) and when I'M comforting my friends. I never open up unless I'm being silly about it or when I'm just talking online. I hate myself so much and my parents make it worse but I love them and if they get taken away from my siblings because of me overreacting then I will do something irrational to myself. I care for them and as long as we're on good terms and they leave everything else behind them I trust them. But it seems that I have to have another talk with them after I'm finally happy and comfortable around them. I'm only posting this because I don't want to be a bother to my partner and because I will do something drastic to myself if I don't let my emotions out here.
(10/21/2025)Guys stop coming to this. I was sad and overthinking and tired when I wrote this and I'm getting better
