[edit 12/2]: This situation is over, I'm almost back to normal. Thank you everyone who commented, you all are too nice <33 ---------------------------------- [!TW!} VENT I thought I knew who you are... I thought I was your friend.. you expect me to be better, when I dont know how to change I´m trying, i really am. I wish you could see that. I wish I could have seen you for who you really were before it was too late. I dont want to be lied to. I dont want to be cheated. Then why do i feel lied to and cheated? Did our friendship mean anything to you? did /i/ mean anything to you? I wish you could tell me what i need to do to be a better friend. am i really annoying? Please tell me if i am...Its better than lying to my face. I dont care. Just tell me if you cant be my friend anymore. Just dont pretend you like my company. If you dont want me here, just tell me. im not mad, I just want to know why you hate me so much. Im not a bad friend... right? I dont want to end our friendship, though i dont know how to continue it. not after the things you called me. I want to scream. I want to cry. I just want someone who´ll listen. Im tired of being the person who always listens but is never listened to. I hate it. I hate it. I hate myself more than I hate it. I dont want to listen. I dont want to comfort anymore. I just want to /be/ the person comforted for once. of course, I´ll never get it. I´ll always watch others get it. I´ll always give it to others. but it will never be given to me. Why dont /i/ get it and /they/ do? What have they done that I havent? I dont think i can take any more of people dumping their issues on me when I dont have anywhere to dump my own issues. They´ll all just laugh it off and think I´m faking. I want someone to talk to I want someone who listens to me the way I listen to them. Though i´ll never find that person, will I?
