So uh... those who know me do know i got ADHD. those who looked in my 'Meet the User' thing would also know i got severe anxiety and some amount of depressionoso. I have also discovered last night (after a anxiety attack after thinking about impossible colors such as dark amber: who even gets it from colors???) that the little roleplays I do in mah head may be part of the fact that i could posssssiiibbblllllyyy have either Psychosis: State of 'altered' reality where you can have distorted perceptions, loss of touch w/ reality. I often get physical/auditory hallucinations and I see things in a weird kinda view at night (the red light on my pc becoming an eye for example), and occationally during the day too, but it don't think have this since I can snap out of it if I want to. and Schizophrenia: mental disorder 'characterized by delusions, hallucinations, and disorganized thinking', which I think I do have. I kinda suspected since it didn't really 'start' but more like I became more aware of it and actually noticed it isn't really my own internal voice talkin. But this is all a guess since im not tested and most likely will never be since I have a tendency to hide stuff and well.. 'fit in' when talking to peeps irl. and also the fact it isn't harming me in any way or whatever and I do enjoy sitting and kinda just listening in + playing around (internally). even if it looks like I am staring into nothingness to anyone lookin at me XD so yeh, this was just me kinda rambling. and yeah, I managed to chill last night, had to get up n grab some water followed by snuggles w/ my pugs, along w/ drawing :)
