Um, so.... I can't be on here anymore (a lot) I'm in trouble. Everyone takes away everything I love, then gets angry bc I'm so depressed and hateful toward the world. Everything that makes me /me/ is being torn away from me. Making me /not/ who I am. So that I'm just like everyone else. What happened to being yourself? What happened to doing what makes you /you/? Is this how people are supposed to be now? Are we just supposed to /not/ be who we are? -- --- -- So, I've got announcements to make. I will still /try/ to be active, but other than that, I won't be. My RPs will go to their co-hosts for the time being while I'm on hiatus. So, TCE will go to @Bolt_And_Pikachu LS will also go to @Bolt_And_Pikachu The Broken Balance will go to @Mooncakefamouse. I'm sorry, that's how it's gonna be. Now, vent time. -- --- -- [ To my school ] Okay, ik you guys are all about belonging and unity at all, so why, /why/ must you take away the /only/ place I feel like I belong? That kinda defeats your whole purpose, doesn't it? Everyday, I feel hated, ignored, and all that other stuff. Here, I feel loved and heard. You taking that away.... is the exact reason why I'm sick of living atm. So, I hope you guys are proud of yourselves. -- --- -- [ To my parents ] You guys are supposed to /support/ me, respect my interests. /You/ guys are also the reason I hate the world. All you've done is tear me apart. You're willing to take away the only thing that brings me happiness, taking away the only place I feel /wanted/. I have no words. I am hurt. Torn into a million pieces. How could you? -- --- -- [ To my followers and Scratch ] Ty to all of my happy memories on here. Here, I could be blissfully ignorant of the world and are the reason I have survived through all the trauma of my life. So thanks. A lot. You have no idea how much I love this site. Idk if I'll be back, but if I'm not, then remember me. Thank you for staying with me to the very end. -- --- -- [ To the "creator of the world" ] Why did you do this to me? All my life I have tried /so hard/ to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but you threw challenge after challenge at me, and it's been enough. /I/ have had enough. Do you /want/ me to suffer? I'm done. I've lost my faith in you. You want to see me broken and torn apart, so that I'm nothing? Fine. I'm done pretending to be strong, done pretending to feel fine when everything /isn't/. I'm done. I've been strong up to this point, for the people who /needed/ me to be strong for them. I've cared for /everyone/, but no one has been there for /me/. You won. So here are the three words I've sworn never to say since the day my life turned upside-down 9 years ago. I. Give. UP.
EDIT: Okay, so I kinda... maybe overreacted... Um, so, I wrote this immediately after I got the news that I couldn't be on here anymore. I was shocked. But after some thought, I decided: maybe this isn't /too/ bad. I mean, I'm still angry, like I said up in the instructions, but... this whole ordeal /is/ kinda my fault. Honestly, after I got over the shock, I kinda felt... /free/. Like I was carrying a great load on my back and it had finally fallen off, and I could /breathe/. I won't be gone forever. I'll be back. But there are things I need to do before that happens. I can finally look after /myself./ My life revolved around Scratch, but now, I won't have to worry about what goes on here, and I can finally get back to focusing on my grades and other things. I'll still be active, but not as active as I was before. I can do things, get my grades up, and hopefully, /hopefully/ get my privilege of coming back here. I'm gonna be more active on my Mag account, so contact me there ;) Also, ik what i said about the creator of our world, and I meant it. Ik all you Christians out there will probably say this was meant to be, but I don't. I've respected your decision to believe in God, now I'm kindly asking you to respect my decision to not believe in him. Please.
