tw: mentions of death, a lot of cringe spoilers for basically the whole percy jackson series/universe read ↓↓↓↓↓↓ okokokok uhm..... so spoilers for like, the whole percy jackson book series ig (that includes heroes of olympus and trails of apollo btw) srlsy if you haven't read that book series, *especially book three of trails of apollo* don't read this because spoilers or whatever. uhm... you've been warned ig when i was nine i read trails of apollo. if you've read it you know where this is going um....so.......one thing about nine y/o me was that my favorite character of anything ever was jason grace from heroes of olympus. so uh....if youve read the books....yk where this is going so... i was like, rlly sad when he died, like, i spent all my free time making aus where he didn't die (in my head, i never wrote them down, i just still have the beat by beat plot memorized to the point where i could recite it from memory because i used to think about it to fall asleep at night for like, three years) if any of my future employers find this account im cooked- i want to smash my face into a wall thinking about this but it was a real time in my life where i took this like...rlly seriously. so when i read book three of trails of apollo...i wanted to talk to my freinds who had also read it about it. and one of my friends kept saying that jason deserved to die, and that permanently changed something about my brain chemistry that day because then i went home sat down with my ipad or something and stayed up writing this awful 'essay' until like, 3am ~enjoy the cringe~ i was trying to sound so formal while writing this aghhhhhhh ....sometimes i wonder how much the stupid stuff i wrote and though about as an elementary schooler effect my personality toady hopefully not that much, but i was reading a new book from that same universe a few hours ago and i was genuinely sad when my aus from when i was nine didn't become cannon like... i kinda still want my stupid aus to be cannon help i had some points sort of i guess? i sent this to my freind after i wrote it and they only read the first two sentences aghhhhhhhhh
