full title: final announcement on the matter. I don't think people truly understand *what* has been going on with me lately, so I intend to clear the air. first of all, yes, my aunt is dead. she passed away from brain cancer on 10 , 27 , 25. almost everything reminds me of her now, and I'll admit, it hurts and it sucks. then the following thursday I lost some of my best friends. even without that, my mental health has been really poor. i've doubted myself, hated myself for every little thing, clung to little unimportant things that just hurt me in the end. I've thought horrible things about myself and others, *said* some of them aloud. and that's not okay. this is probably going to make a lot of people view me in a negative light, but that's okay. because I'm willing to admit my faults. I know that my personality traits and unhealthy tendencies have caused a few altercations with people who took what I thought to be one way in a completely different direction. so i'm going to better myself, limit my interactions with people online outside of roleplaying. but do understand that I just lost my aunt, whose birthday happens to be on monday (a.k.a a week after her death) and my best friends all in the span of a few days. my point in making this is just to spread awareness and to let everyone know of my situation(?). thank you for your time.
thank you, everyone, for the supportive comments ! whether on here, on a different account, or on chaos, it's much appreciated. sorry I didn't respond to everyone, i'm unsure how <//3
