hey yall. its been a rough while. my parents still kinda hate me so thats no different. my eating and mental health are kinda weighing down. a lot. uhm my friend was hurt by a guy (...) and i cant get it out of my head. she was assulted by him on halloween, at a 'function' and i was with her moments before and she seemed 'deranged' and i could have gotten her out of there before it happened but i didnt and now shes hurt and it was my fault. and shes the last person to deserve it. she is the kindest soul out there and i would legit die for this girl. she helps others and volunteers at community centers even with her many sports and activites. shes struggled with mental health and food and social pressure but now she has to carry on to the load her assult because of me. im furious. other than that school has been a pain. i like my new friends though. theyre low key chill so... yea. anywaysss i cant respond to anything until next time i log on and as yall can tell, it isnt gonna be soon..
