i low-key absolutely despise hosting dtas. but theyre just so popular i feel so much pressure to host them im like 'i made a cool design' and if i were to ever ask what to do with them (because i would, you know, ACTUALLY like characters i took time designing to not rot in depths of my procreate gallery) the ONLY response id get is 'make a dta' or 'just GIVE THEM AWAY' or smthing. and i have actual numbers to back ts up ive done like a vote on what i should do once and literally everybody voted for dta so i tried to make designs. but like never ended up finishing it (IM NOT JOKING MORE THAN HALF PEOPLE VOTED FOR DTA OUT OF LIKE 5-6 OPTIONS). and two other times i made designs and literally asked 'what do i do with these' and ive just been asked to make more dtas. WHICH I DO NOT ENJOY HOSTING NOR AM I GOOD AT HOSTING THEM. one of my first ever projects after coming back in 2022 WAS a dta. which was kind of unfairly set up but i pushed deadlines just so people could get their entries in, which i shouldn't have done i should have been more firm. but i had fun?? i guess. i then procrastinated for MONTHS afterwards. i also gave a design to somebody who i feel didn't feel put as much effort as somebody else, because i felt pressured by them!! which is again something i shouldn't have done. then, either shortly after making the results to that dta, or even more egregiously, BEFORE THE RESULTS WERE EVEN OUT (i checked and YES!!! i hosted another dta before releasing the results for the last one). i made even worse designs than last time, somehow. i dont have much more to say on that so lets get to the 2024 one!! it was a collab with ok designs but heres the thing!!! i dont even think i had an end date, so i just... let it go on?? i have no idea but i cancelled it!! because of something that happened in my personal life that directly impacted the dta!!! just ended it!!!!! i am NOT fit at ALL to host any kind of dta. i want to be part of the art community on here, but for gods sake how am i supposed to do that when scratch is literally just a million dtas and animation meme templates. with how dead my account is i dont think i have a chance of doing or hosting ANYTHING else. in fact, ive TRIED doing other things and ive gotten NO traction unless it was literally giving designs away!! and im literally only comfortable ON SCRATCH!! and only on scratch!! i have an insanely hard time becoming part of ANY kind of community or sit, niche or not. and i'm lucky enough to have met friends through the site. i never want to host a dta EVER again. i'm not proofreading the wall of text i just wrote.
