This is mainly for @randomlolzvids1144 , (i just realized i spelt that wrong.) and anyone else who has lost someone or something that really meant a lot to them. i have had a friend commit before and i couldn't understand why she did it. One of my other friends ran away and i blamed myself for it. also recently i learned that one of my other friends is a depression cutter. Then, my dog died and i realized that i can't control everything that happens in life. i just have to accept it, let it go, and move on. but i never forgot anything that happened. i still remembered which friend killed herself, which friend tried to run away, and which friend's life could be at stake. i feel bad and sad and twisted up inside but i accept it as my fate to have many sad things happen to me in life. i am also ashamed that i have thought about killing myself also. i hated the feeling that i was useless and that i was the reason everything went wrong. that everyone would be better off without me. i HATED it. but i also hated myself. that was my first half of the year at my new school. people kept calling me child of the devil and useless and unwanted. that was when i felt like committing. but my friends wouldn't let me and they kept making me look up at the silver lining. thank you, to everyone. if you know someone whose life might be at stake, tell someone. PLEASE. or at least try to talk them out of it. ps. sorry for the "evry1" it is supposed to say everyone but the title wouldn't fit. pps. please feel free to remix this!!!!!
