(November 19) If you could choose one song to describe your current mood, which song would it be? For me, this song. I always hate to see people leave this platform. It's rough to lose a friend that way. So commonly, I see people leave for personal issues, toxic communities, and even just boredom. I won't be one of them. However, I am going to leave scratch. Don't worry, I'll return. When am I returning? Whenever I feel is a good time to return. Earlier today, one of my close friends got into a massive argument. For months now, she's been tearing apart my friend group. Now, my girlfriend and I are her only friends. What happens when she runs out of my friends to hate for no reason? She finds an excuse to hate me. She tried to steal some kid's lunch, but I stood up for him and stopped her. What does she do? Proceed to (I'm not exaggerating this) cuss me out and tell me I'm a jerk cuz, oh yes, I'm a jerk for stopping you from stealing someone's LUNCH? Woooooooww, so that's how it's gonna go now. Stuck between the arguments of two of her friends, my girlfriend looked really stressed and sad. I hate to see her that way, but I don't know how to fix the problem. To be honest, I was only ever (the friend)'s friend cuz she didn't have any other friends. She didn't have friends because she's rude and annoying. She's said that without me, she'd be heartbroken and that I'm her best friend. Lately, she's been telling me that the only reason we're still friends is my girlfriend. Is she jealous? Does she wish that we were closer friends? If so, she just ruined the only chance of that she'll ever get. And you wanna know what? Afterwards, I even bought her ice cream as she had requested, but she still refused to make eye contact with me or speak to me. Sometimes, I just can't with the people in this world. I'm stuck with a separated friend group, and the separator herself calling me names. I can't help but feel like this is my fault. I was part of a thriving friend group who enjoyed my company, but once I brought her to the group, they started fragmenting away until I was the only one from the original group. I brought her to our group. I destroyed our group. I was her friend. I failed. Some of you might say, "Why don't you visit a therapist or a counselor?" You wanna know why? A. My school's guidance counselor system sucks. B. My parents SHIP ME WITH HER. Sry about this massive vent. I try to hide my emotions. I really do. But sometimes, I can't. I can't hold it in. And this is one of those moments. As of today, I will be offline for a period of time. No saying when I return. You only know that I'm leaving. This is more of a break to regain my mental state </3. When I return, I'll try to make a 100+ followers project, but for now, goodbye. (November 20) Thank you all for the support! She apologized, but she doesn't realize that an apology will fix what she did. I don't know how to drop her, but I know I have to. I somehow managed to get everyone from the original friend group to agree to reunite! The only other problems are A. unfriending her, and B. keeping my girlfriend happy. I don't think I said yet, but my girlfriend is also friends with her and would be really sad if she saw her boyfriend, of all people, excluding her friend from a friend group. When will the day come that she (the friend) realizes that stealing people's food is really mean? Another thing that I forgot to say is that she also creates fake accusations that negatively affect people. An example of this would be my friend Josh. She all of a sudden claimed he was a perv one day, and now he's avoided by everyone. Wish me luck in restoring the friend group </3 Goodbye again. Expect me to return in January. (It'll probably take me around 2 months to get the friend group back together, get her out of my life, and recover my mental state </3) (December 1) [filler] I'm not going to do any more check-ins. When I return, I return. Just in case I live up to that 2-month expectation, happy Thanksgiving, merry Christmas, and happy New Year. <3 song: Dull Knives - Imagine Dragons (yes, I was gonna use this song for a cce, but I kinda gave up on that :P)
