Hey guys. So basically I am posting this bc I really need someone to talk to. Recently I've been feeling a lot of hatred towards myself, physically and mentally. I don't wanna be making too big of a deal about it, especially since I really don't think people wanna hear me rant about my problems. Some of the things I will bring up might be very triggering to some people and I'm sorry about that. All of this really started around 2 weeks ago, I only didn't mention it sooner because a lot of stuff was happening in the scratch community. I believe it was the 4th of the month, and I was eating dinner with my family. My mom wasn't there because she was on a trip. I was going for my second plate because I was very hungry and hadn't eaten all day, and my dad said to me "You know Renae, it wouldn't hurt you to lose a few pounds" Him saying this, I will admit, caused me to gain an e@t!ng D!sorder. I've been really close to doing certain stuff to myself (iykyk) but I haven't because I considered my friends, my gf and bf, and my followers. I've been going to therapy for awhile, but it hasn't helped at all. And even before this happened, I have been feeling like absolute cr@p. My dad has said a lot of messed up things to me, but nothing ever that bad. I have had to put on a fake face for so long, I made it seem like I was happy, but I really am not. I really just need someone to talk to right now, because otherwise I might seriously end it. So sorry that this is so long. Love y'all Cya
