Day 19 of November 2025 I feel like I'm at my lowest point. Everyday it gets worse. Living in Arizona is a nightmare, the people are obnoxious, the insects are the bane of my existence. It just will never improve. I thought of hurting myself 8 times today. Each day I question why I still live in this planet. Arizona is never going to improve. I've given this state an entire year and a quarter at this point and my life still sucks. Arizona is the worst state to ever live in and I hate how my parents keep defending this state even though they know it's bad. They know I'm struggling, they're aware that this state sucks. But guess what, they don't care. Sometimes they don't even take me seriously enough. Especially my brother. He just invalidates my mental breakdowns just because he thinks I'm in an emo phase. I hate Arizona...
