This is me 100percent of the time I'm always a forced smile while my heart is crying inside every day even when rlly bad stuff happens I always have to force a smile no matter how much I'm hurting or in pain inside and the fact that all the people I help end up turning against me and I cant take it anymore I have broken down crying at night and had sleepless nights(why does this happen to me when all I do is help and defend I never pick a side yet @PlutoFox99 thinks I am I'm tired of it if this is gonna be it then I'm not helping anyone.