so uh.. if u couldn't tell.. my latest project was taken down but ik the st had their reasons.. but honestly idrk why but I don't feel the same with scratch anymore and it really sucks. I have tons of scratch project ideas planned but I don't feel like doing them because I think they'll get taken down no matter what. but I'll try being happy for you guys but scratch doesn't feel the same.. as it used to. i've been really wanting to leave for such a long time and I am one millimeter away from deciding on what I should do. maybe leaving scratch was something I should have done way back on my very first account because I don't think I can recognize my own self-worth anymore. idk what to do now.. I thought scratch would be my way of escaping reality and being the person I want to be. I had bullies and they bullied and shamed me and I just wanted to escape. however, they're in my school and there's not much to do about it. but scratch really changed me, not necessarily in a good way. there is so much toxicity and drama that I js don't know what to do. it just feels the same with the real world again and idk what to do. i'll keep trying to post projects on here but lately, i've just not been feeling the same. maybe I will make a yt channel and post there because it's been one of my dreams to start a yt channel so i'll probably start next year and post fresh content on there instead of on here <3 and who knows? maybe i'll decide to leave right now. I just feel alone.. and I don't know what life has for me. my habits are even worse then what I thought and my health teacher told me "what you get into, is what you will stick with for the rest of your life and it will be impossible to get out of." so.. what i'm trying to say here is that maybe i'll quit for now. I know I just came back around a few days ago but I don't feel the same with everything that much anymore. I'll probably stay for a few more months but scratch lately has been so boring. however, the only thing that keeps me on here is my friendsss. they're the only ones who can understand me and make me feel free and act like my authentic self, silly, goofy and just really kind. but IDK man.. scratch hasn't hit me the same as it used to. I used to LOVE gaining followers and gaining popularity but I don't know about that feeling anymore.. besides, i have to be more worried about what's going on in my real world. I have to worry about school, grades, friendships, family and mental health and self worth. and scratch might make it worse. as for now, i'll use this account to talk to my friends and make a few more projects. when I get all of my friend's socials, I will decide to leave scratch forever. being a kid doesn't last forever and you have to grow out of your habits someday. so.. I will be around here, just not as active anymore. I will be more active on other platforms though. some of my socials: rblx: cutiegirl59343 pin: i02diary (private) tumb: iyuziette I am going to get dc on my birthday but that's MILES away so i'll stick around for as long as I need to to get my friend's socials so that we could talk to each other <3 I don't know if I will be able to visit, scratch hasn't hit me the same. but i'll most likely try to visit and talk to my friends. but i'll most likely be very inactive. I really need my friend's socials if possible but if not, i'll try to stick around. if you press the green flag, I put this song on because it makes me hopeful, happy, mad, stressed and sad and just so many mixed emotions, which is what I'm feeling currently, writing this on my desk. the year of 2025 doesn't feel the same as it used to, Halloween doesn't feel the same, so does thanksgiving and Christmas and I'm used to getting small gifts or even no gifts for Christmas anyway. and I just feel like i'd be happier somewhere unknown.. thank u so much for reading this and please respect my decisions on this, ivy ❤
