It’s hard to speak sometimes sometimes my vocal cords feel like they are coated with dust and rust I can’t use them all the time but I must must When you first become awake in the morning sometimes you mourn that you gotta get through another morning of pain with no gain the sting of unrequited love the hurt of trying trying but never quite being actually enough it hurts so much it hurts so much will i ever be enough? I feel so alone in this place In the mirror is a stranger with a familiar face I don’t like where I am cause nothing’s the same as it was when I was younger before the thoughts won I was little innocent and sweet but now my skin is bleeding And i’m not healing The scars already forming from this twisted thing called rage I sold my last piece of sanity to the piece of me that did it I don’t got the time I don’t have any patience I can’t stop to smell the flowers cause my heart is broken I can’t see the good things I can’t hear your shouts Cause the voices in my head are drowning them out I’m hallucinating everything can’t prove that it’s real or fake Every step every choice feels like it’s not mine to make I’m so tired of just barely getting by and I wish my brain would let me be okay to cry cause sometimes I just need to let it out I just want to sob and I just wanna shout but when I try to just let myself feel not a sound comes out and my silence is silent no heartbeat no breath nothing just silent
