This is not a very good project to make, but I have to get this out before I start tearing myself apart because I got too emotionally fragile. Lately, I've been thinking about what my successes have been, and then I delved into criticisms. Over the years, I've noticed I've been overhated. A lot of the time, it was minimal. Then it grew worse. And worse. AND WORSE. The voicelines you hear are an excerpt of MY ACTUAL THOUGHTS about myself at times. I've been thinking so hard that it feels like I've been making things worse. I haven't delivered on shows, I haven't delivered on stuff I wanted to do... Heck, I haven't finished so many projects! I've noticed that throughout the phases I've had, one thing is in common: Something ruins it or I just give up. Whether if it was with Spikey, Speedy and AJ, or The New Super Mario Bros. Show, it never lasted. Then, when I try again, I feel like I'm super out of place. There's a reason I've never posted TNSMBS, or BFS, or Super Mariotime. Ya wanna know why? I'm scared of the public eye over fears that are so over the top, yet SO plausible. I'm so afraid of being laughed off or being bullied that I don't do it. And whenever I try to promote a project that I'm actually trying to work on, the people I promote to, they aren't the right group. Then they don't let go of the past and make me feel bad about it. I've just been thinking lately that a lot of this has to do with me and that I'm just...not a likable person. I mean, that's probably why I've lost friends, how a lot of stuff ended that way, how nothing works out in the end... Let's think this through. My first project was a REMIX. A really bad one, lol. But that's expected. And if you take a look at ALL my projects, you'll notice they're all just remixes or just art or very basic coding. That's not what I want. I try to dream big, but I can never achieve them cuz I'm so scared. I can't help but think that whenever I interact with something...it gets a whole lot worse.
