i have the feeling i need to be better than everyone else, not in an egotistical way, but to impress other. my friends are amazing, but sometimes i can't tell them everything. I feel weird and left out bc 1) I'm pansexual and 2) i like making Kandi... nothing wrong with that, but i feel like i should impress the preppy girls. a few are my friends, but how do i really know if they like me? I get this feeling that one day, everyone will turn their backs on my and leave me for d34d...and sometimes i hope that happens.... and on the fact of being pan, i'm also non-binary/demi-girl (confused ig) and i (GIRL THING WARNING) HATE MY CH3ST SO MUCH, i want a binder, but my family would NEVER let me get one. I want to find a way to wrap my ch3st and keep...th4t part of my b0dy hidden. I H4T3 1T S0 MUCH.... I also h4t3 the fact that am overw3ight. MOST GIRLS MY AGE WEIGH LESS THEN 100, AND I'M OV3R TH4T... 1 H4T3 MY B0DY 1M4G3, I H4TE 1T, I H4T3 1T S0, S0, S0 MUCH....the urge to cvt is overwhelming to say the least... i....i dunno what to do anymore.... I build a home on this platform, and watch as my friends on here fall down, their mental health d3cr34s1ng...4ND 1 W4NN4 D0 S0M3TH1NG 4B0UT 1T....I D0....BUT ONE 0F U$ 3ITH3R G3TS CH4T B4NN3D F0R 30 MIN OR TH3Y JU$T $T0P T4LK1NG T0 M3....1'M D0N3 4CT1NG L1KE 1'M F1NE...I'M F-ING NOT...
MY F4M1LY 1S H0M0PH0B1C, WH1CH 1S 4M4Z1NG F0R M3, C0NS1D3R1NG TH3 F4CT 1'M P4NS3XU4L AND N0N-B1NARY/D3M1-G1RL...I....i'm sorry...if anything this'll be gone by next week... bye
