okay i understand this is probably the culmination of a lot of things, but fully understanding is another thing for another time Okay so like i didnt think not being able to doomscroll (and actually get my mind cleared and focused) at school would be an issue, but i guess it is, as not being able to ignore the noisy things in class, which i dont know how to otherwise deal with that well (they blocked coolmathgames, which probably could've been a decent replacement), so i just lost my focus a little into first period, and now my skin and mind feel like (yes ik this is weird sounding, but it is a thing i've noticed) im chilling at home, but also with some stress mixed in there pretty good. Like I kinda wanna go home early but it's already 4th period by the time i'm sharing this, so idk if i'll actually get picked up. Hope I can not go crazy. AuDHD moment -_-
also sorry for not posting as of late, i have not been feeling mentally active enough to really make anything creatively, sorry if you were worried or whatever :P