✦ mellifluousdream . she / fae / e . typing ・・・ she dips her head, standing up and padding away from the coral mound. diplomatically, seriously, professionally. because that's what a new medic should be like, right? keyword ; should. for some reason unknown to eli, faer heart pounds, ears instinctively flattening. her usually placid lavender gaze is wide, unfocused, frenzied as it scans through the camp desperately. ... focusing on a single pelt of delicate azure, of vibrant emerald green eyes. why her? why her? e bites eir lip, turning away sharply and making a beeline for the exit, paws gliding more than walking. the golden sand scatters as mellifluousdream races across it, the pounding in her ears barely drowning out the roar of the ocean, salt creeping into eir nostrils. until e skids to a stop, a mere foxlength away from the ever-taking waters. fae breathes quickly, shallowly. air doesn't seem to come fast enough, and for a moment e stays completely still, fixated by the water lapping at the shoreline. it was so unfair, she thinks dimly, trotting closer, paws finally awake once the cold hit. the shore got so many do-overs. it was wiped clean in a mere pawful of heartbeats, clear of thoughts and memories and stupid, stupid feelings. not like a cat's life. every lapping of the waves was different; inevitable; and hopelessly permanent. mellifluousdream stands, trembling, in the water, eyes squeezed shut. only one image remains in the forefront of her mind, one of a gentle smile and warm laugh. azurecall. stars, why was she thinking about azurecall? well, yes, they were friends, but fae had other friends. and none of them made her feel quite like azurecall did. none made e laugh so easily. none raced along the shoreline so effortlessly. none understood the losses both had been through. it was so puzzling and yet so clear. so dizzying and yet bright as day. her smile. her run. her laugh. her pelt. her eyes, shining like emerald with mirth and delight. ・・・ by the sea. oh. oh.. well. she blinks, gasping for air like e's been punched. it takes a moment for fae to comprehend, to catch her breath. mellifluousdream starts to chuckle, a silly, sad sound, then to sob, a silly, sad sound. "all along," flo breathes, excitement and dread warring within, "it was..." "you." but all too quickly, the water laps at eir paws again, reality crashing colder than any wave could ever be. she's a medic, and she's a warrior. it won't work out. how could it ever work out? eli's eyes begin to sting, and e suddenly starts running. water kicks up behind fae, but e doesn't take notice, diving deeper and deeper into the sea. is it a fruitless, cowardly escape? perchance. is it permanent? it is not. she was wrong, e realizes; though the water does not come to refresh your life, the marks you make are up to you. ・・・ after all, it was you who held me. it was you who laughed with me. it was you who ran with me not away from our troubles, but towards a bright future. it's you, and your stupidly dazzling smile, and your pretty blue pelt, and your twisted, incomprehensible feelings, and your quick, playful pace, and your sly, teasing glance, that i love. and i don't know what to do now and if you even love me and i don't know if i can ever recover from you. ・・・ " stars, azurecall. you're making me so sappy." ✦ end of roleplay ・・・ art by me (so many tutorials. so. many.) mellifluous owned by me, the others are not.