[originally shared on December 4th 2025) Lowkey like this song and hate it at the same time C# minor 140 bpm (in some parts it goes up to 180) Inst and vocals only ver inside This song is mostly about how i feel when disassociating hehe Wrote this while having a mental breakdown over how relatable the bekenohana lyrics are So its quite dark (not the darkest as its only the second pre release the 3rd pre release nighrmare will be the darkest) Lyrics: [verse] All i wish for is to fall as the wind blows, cause all i find myself doing is wishing for it to go away, but I don’t want to leave myself lonely in the abyss, I’ll try to escape from everything crawling back, but I still feel the emptiness inside like something out to get me as I try to rewind [pre-chorus] And I feel as I’m slipping away I don’t know what’s real or not All I wanted to was to escape But now I feel everything coming back [chorus] Im always in a never ending daydream, forever running away from reality, even if it feels like everything will chase me, at least i can still feel like im in a dream [post-chorus] (Forever running away, a endless daydream, I never want to see reality, I know the truth may chase me but it wont turn into a nightmare yet) [refrain] (Your not enough) (It’s all your fault) (Your not enough) (It’s all your fault) [verse] Paper scattered over my room, nothing I could write will hold up (I’m okay right?) I could never be like them, I’m sure you can agree (I’m still okay right?) I’m the problem in everything, I’m making everything worse (I’m not okay right?) I’m nothing but I don’t even have the courage to be stuck in a void of what I am (I’m not okay now) I’ll always be hiding, the only thing I’m good at is running (pretend your okay then you will be) [pre-chorus] As I try to make sense of everything (your not enough) I can’t it’s to much to handle (It’s all your fault) All I wanted was to escape (your not enough) But know everything’s coming back (it’s all your fault) [chorus] Im always in a never ending daydream, forever running away from reality, even if it feels like everything will chase me, at least i can still feel like im in a dream [post-chorus] (Forever running away, a endless daydream, I never want to see reality, I know the truth may chase me but it wont turn into a nightmare yet) [bridge] I’ll always be hiding in the dark Cause I could never look it in the eyes I know it will find me if I run But that’s the only thing I’m good at All I want is to escape (Im not okay right?) Please just let me do so (I’m not okay now) [chorus] It’s all my fault I don’t deserve this Even in a dream I bet they all hate me Why am I trying so hard to be someone I’ll never be I really belong in the trap my mind puts me in They were all right I’m not deserving if anything Even if I try so hard to be I really should just throw myself into what I really am Cause I really am nothing Im always in a never ending daydream, forever running away from reality, even if it feels like everything will chase me, at least i can still feel like im in a dream [post-chorus] (Forever running away, a endless daydream, I never want to see reality, I know the truth may chase me but it wont turn into a nightmare yet) Credits: Everything (vocals, inst, thumb, desc ect) made by me Produced and mixed in logic pro ipad version Thumbnail made in pixlr e
