Okay so here’s a little rant. This is friend stuff from years ago, and some of it now. Like- a year ago, me and my friends were hanging out and then I said jokingly, “You’re so dumb,” and I said it in a sarcastic tone, okay? And then one of them says, “Yuki, we don’t like how you’re rude.” I might be overreactive about this, but I replied simply, “Okay? If you don’t like how I act, then you don’t like me at all. What else shapes my personality?” They said, “Yuki, we don’t like how you say ‘ok’” LIKE- WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN? I just stare at them, and then they walk away and ignore me. After that, well, I’m not doing okay. I didn’t want to break our friendship, but sometimes I guess you have to let people go. Flashback to- what- 4 years ago? I had ONE FRIEND. And she left me. After that, 2 years later, I got new best friends. That didn’t end well(the top paragraph btw) Sometimes I wonder if the world would be different without me, or if everything would be the same. I always feel like a burden, and sometimes I feel like the best thing I could do is d!e. “People care about you,” So then why do all of my friends talk about me behind my back? “Your parents care about you,” So why do they make me cry almost every night? Also, I’m literally just putting more bills on their back. “I care about you,” Not sure what to say about that, I mean, most people on this platform I don’t even know irl.
I dunno. I’m just tired of life.
