hi yesterday it was brought to my attention that i had been permanently banned from tfcrp. this was something that came completely out of the blue to me and others. since i have zero access to chaos, i would've likely never been notified of the decision until much later, but knowing what i know now, i'd like to clear a few things up. this project is not meant to spread hate or start any arguments. i just need people to understand that i am not the person that i have been painted to be. yes, i was apart of the private server, and yes i did comment and chat with the people there regularly. they were my friends, and a few of them still are. i am in no way cleared from the consequences of being a part of the aforementioned server, but i am also far from the evil person many now might see me as. when i had full access to chaos and was chatting in this server regularly, i was still in 8th grade. i was younger, and a lot less mature than i am now. this, of course, doesn't excuse anything, but more or less serves as a possible explanation from the carelessness that i displayed while talking there. as many of the hurtful conversations happened a little while ago, i don't remember what i said or what i participated in, but to anyone that i've hurt, i am so very sorry. i am far from the bully i may seem like, even if that's hard to believe after everything. i know for a fact that i NEVER participated in anything along the lines of secret accounts, death threats, and wishing harm on others, but i am so sorry to anyone that was sent such terrible things. i had no idea things like that were going on (aside from a few specific instances, where the perpetrator was promptly banned from the server + tfc), and if i had, i would've said something immediately. no one deserves to go through that. however, despite everything that's been said, i hope people can understand that we aren't all terrible people. our bans and the announcement that was posted made us out to be villains, but we are good people. we made mistakes, but our worst moments don't make us monsters. all we can do is take this opportunity to learn and grow, which is something i for one am happily embracing. i am not defending what happened, but simply trying to get it out there that we are in fact human- just like the rest of you. i loved and still do love everyone i made connections with while in that infamous private server, and i can safely say that none of us are inherently evil by nature, despite everything that has come to light. the announcement that was made left many questions unanswered i'm sure, making room for many assumptions and rumors to be spread. the last thing i want is for my former friends and acquaintances to think of me as a bad person, which is just something i'm not, and all i wish is for others to see that. i am so terribly sorry to everyone who's characters will be affected by my absence. i enjoyed creating stories and developing relationships will all of you, and i enjoyed every second of it all. i know you will continue being great people and creating amazing characters with or without me present. tfcrp took over two (almost three) years of my life, and i had a lot of fun times here and made many memorable relationships. although it did take a toll on my mental health at times, i did genuinely enjoy being a part of this community, but i think this was bound to happen anyways. i had been contemplating leaving for a while now, and this is really just the final push- even if i didn't made the decision to leave on my own behalf. my last wish for the people here is to not start spreading hateful rumors about all of us, especially since many of you might not know the full story. you do not know the entirety of what happened, ruining our images further will do nothing but cause more hate to spread in this community, and so i beg you to understand. as for my characters, i will be writing stuff for them in the coming week after i've finished with my finals. i will also be undoing my claim of hexkit. it would be unfair for me to kill her off when she hasn't even had the chance to live yet. a big thanks to everyone that has ever supported me while being on this platform, and to all of the friends and relationships that i have formed throughout my two years here. i value and appreciate every one of you so much and i know you will all go on to do amazing things <3 thank you, and goodbye. <3
