If you are simply here to tell me something bad about myself that I already know, please... just leave. --- I don't know what's wrong. I've already been cured. I have Bella back. I feel somewhat safe where I am... but I feel empty. I feel unhappy. I don't feel as if it's worth it. I have what I've been wanting again for years... but... ... Is it that I feel it's not enough..? I.. am not sure why it'd be that. Am I afraid to lose it all again...? .. I don't think it'd be that. I-... I'm getting angrier than usual. I snapped at Bella earlier, I raised my voice, all they were trying to do is ask me what was wrong... I feel terrible. Am I going to end up hurting people again..? I don't want to hurt anybody. Am I simply destined to now..? It's happened so much, are my hands used to it now..? I swear, I can still smell the blood... ... I don't want to hurt anyone again, I don't want to lose everything again, I don't want to be here, I don't want to live!! ... Please... I just want to feel at peace. I want it to last. Why can't I have it..?? What did I do..?! Why me!!?
