Alright, for those of you who know me, this project may seem strange. Usually, I'm the one commenting on other's "vents", offering support and providing a safe, relaxing space to open up. I try to support everyone I come across, even when I don't know who they are. Today, however, is different. I'm so tired. Exhausted would be a better word, really. I'm under so much stress from my personal life. I'm hungrier, sleepier, my average heart rate is in the 80's (I know thanks to a free watch that my father bought from hotel points). I timed the space between my yawns during a "yawning session" once, and found that my yawns average one per three, sometimes four, minutes, even during the middle of the day. I'm bloated, am randomly aching, and now, I'm late for a certain female thing. I've been having the "female thing" for awhile now, and usually, I'm not this late for it. The period of time between my last "female thing" and when I was supposed to start has been 45 days, as of the day this project was posted. My father constantly yells at my mother and I for the smallest things. Turning our heads. Sighing quietly. Calling him out when his voice becomes higher and his pace becomes faster. We think he's lying about finances again. Whenever we try to speak with him about it, he becomes even more aggressive, even when we try to be gentle or confront him head on. All I want to do is just...sleep. To breathe. To find a place where all the stress goes away, and I can just feel normal, for once.
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