hello my loves, i bet you've been wondering where i went and where i have been going. i'm going to start this off by saying that scratch was what got me through my 5th, 6th, and 7th grade years. i checked every ten minutes for new messages from you all, from new stories and new poems that everyone had posted. and i am forever grateful for it. for this. for you all. but life moves in ways we do not want them to. this is a formal project to say that i'm not quitting, per say, but i am not going to promise that i'm going to be active anymore. wow, life passes us by so quickly, doesn't it? the first time i logged into this account and came up with 'peppermintangel,' i was ten. now? i'm fourteen, and struggling through life. school has been hectic, and home life even more so, and i'm not sure i can keep up with this account anymore. i'm currently going through the roughest season of my life due to family problems, school, friends, bullying, and etc, etc, you know the drill. it's just been really hard. i feel exhausted all the time. i cry nearly every day. it's not healthy. i swear i've been trying to post but...i don't know, writing doesn't come that naturally to me anymore. every single one of you fanned my love of writing. from my first project, all the way up until now, no matter how long you've been tagging along on this journey, you've inspired me. and that's what's so funny- i used to be the newcomer of the writing community, with so many higher-ups with writing so good it made me want to bawl. but now? recently? people are asking me how to make their projects more popular, or that they're a fan of me. and that's absolutely wild. i currently have 400 followers, and that's not anywhere near big, but it's also not anywhere near somewhere i ever thought i'd get. i was ecstatic at 50. bewildered at 100. four hundred is insane. i suppose the reason why i am "leaving" for an unprecedented sort of time is from many factors. one being that i'm honestly not doing well mentally. 8th grade has been rough, and i mean rough. i'm being moved and ripped and flipped around, and as much as i'd like to write as my outlet and post it on here, i can't. whether that be because of guidelines or because i just don't have time. i think it'll be good for me to take a break, and good for yall to stop waiting on more updates from me promising things i never deliver on. secondly, a lot of my friends are inactive or have quit. do you know ? she was such a sweet little kid, who told me they had started writing because of me and my projects. it actually made me cry. but now? i can't find her or her work anymore. ryan () is sort of still online, but not as frequently, and she was one of my biggest inspirations. and then there's gwdfi closing. that was honestly my home. those people i could talk to. those people who supported my writing journey. strangers. who liked my stories. i just wanted to come on here and say...thank you. thank you scratch, for giving a girl a place where she could truly be herself. thank you all, for supporting a teen writer who can barely support herself. this isn't goodbye, it's a new beginning. i'll post once and a while, maybe, if something really big or good comes out of me, but for now...well, i guess this is the end, my loves. thank you. so so so much. i quite literally don't know where i would be without this account. without all of you. without the late-nights making thumbnails, without the grins i shared with only the screen. i'll never forget yall. i hope yall never forget me. keep writing, keep finding your voice, keep your chaos, make your peace, and love all. God bless. until we meet again, azzie/liya.
