Alright! So um, you might have heard this before but *ahem* I do not care. Anyways, moving on! What I want to vent about today is that I will go to secondary school in a while, but right now, I have to decide which one I want to go to. You may or may not know that I live in Hong Kong in China in Asia on the Earth in the Milky Way in the universe. (You might have some ideas or assumptions about Asians, and that's alright! I just want to let you know that your thoughts have a big chance to be incorrect since different Asians differ. You can't just define an entire race due to rumors.) In here, picking a secondary school is HARD, especially now, it is INSANE. We have three separate exam weeks that matter for our ENTIRE LIVES. OH, and you can't even enter a school solely because you have good grades. You literally have to go to the school and INTERVIEW. Maybe other places have that too, I don't know. But we are 11 years old, what do you expect from us?? Hello, teachers????? Principals???? I'm kinda nervous and I have to practise because of course I have to. There's just so much PRESSURE and people keep telling me different types of "very useful" feedback, such as "suggestions" and "constructive information". I mean, at least the interview won't be in Mandarin (standard Chinese) because I suck at that, but in Cantonese (Hong Kong's language) and English. I kinda have a neat advantage on the interview because my English is better than average Hong Kong residents. (Not trying to brag, ok? It's hard to vent to you if you keep judging what I write.) Still, I'm extremely concerned since if I don't nail this, my whole life is IN RUINS. Here's an example: If I don't ace this interview, I will not be able to enter my dream school or even a school using the English language to teach; if I don't enter my dream school or even a school using the English language to teach, I will SUFFER and I will get TORTURED; if I suffer and get tortured, I will be unhappy; if I am unhappy, I will not want to learn; if I don't want to learn, I will not learn; if I don't learn, I will fail all my tests; if I fail all my tests, I will not get into a university; if I do not get into a university, I will not be able to learn; if I am not able to learn, I will be stupid; if I am stupid, I will not get a job; if I do not get a job, I will be broke; if I am broke, I will run out of food; if I run out of food, I will starve; if I starve, I will die. That's just one of the many dead ends that might happen to me by virtue of not getting into a good secondary school, and I'm not taking that risk. That's why I am drowning in pressure :')
I don't know what else to say. Might vent again next time if things change :)
