this is what i wish it could be -- one. tell me if you wanta be pinged for further chapters. okay. before i start ,, keep in mind that this will probably seem stupid and someone will prob say "we all go through this suck it up." and yeah i get that we all go through this ,, i have before ,, but this time it seems kinda different. idk why or how ,, but i kinda just need to write about it. make a whole novel on scratch and then make an album too....also ,, using they/them pronouns cuz sunrise im not telling u anything >< read this for more info :: https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1256898608 alright that said ,, let's start. no hate please and don't report ! -------------------------------------------------------------------------- it started in december. well ,, it didn't start in december ,, but that's when this story will start. the beginning of december. not gonna specify the date. they walked into class bouncing up and down. and ofc i ask why. im not a bad friend. they explain why and i understand. and that day ,, i died inside. it wasn't their fault. how could it be, when they had no idea? they couldn't help their feelings. just like i couldn't help mine. when i was in chorus that day ,, i couldnt sing the song about everything turning out good ,, about staying happy. i almost broke down crying in the middle of it. i didn't. all my friends were there ,, and i couldn't answer their questions. so i sucked it up and lip synced. no one noticed i wasn't singing. no one ever does. my other friends noticed. one of them. she asked what happened. not in a pushy way ,, just a "i'm going through something too and we both need a little help ,, i might tell you what happened if you tell me" way. i almost told her. i didn't. i realized i couldn't. unless i wanted my life to end. later ,, the person who k!lled me inside (we'll say...aspen) saw me and told me abt how happy they were. i think i di3d a second time. i said i was so happy for them and then said i had to go and went a different way. when i got home i wrote a song. maybe i'll share it later ,, if enough people want me to. tell me if you want me to.
