I genuinely cant begin to describe. I dont think i'mdoin good right now, and just need to vent Things have not been well, I've been doin bad at school and worse at home. Half the time i question wether i can keep this mask up. My sister hasn't been doing good, with her getting shoved into therapy. I'm still having trouble with a friend me and my friend group had to cut off cuz he doesn't get that I'm trying to avoid him and is constantly trying to weasel his way back into our friend group, one of my best friends moved and now we don't talk much, and on top of that scratch has been getting worse with all my friends quitting, not being here 70% of the time, and M&M rebooted being a huge weight on my shoulders. school feels like the same thing day in and day out, I go, try to smile near my friends, get harassed by 2 people, and leave. I'm constantly trying to keep my friend group happy and smiling, but now I wonder if I would be a bad friend if they weren't constantly smiling. I've been smiling harder while feeling worse. I sleep until 1pm on days I'm not at school just to avoid dealing with life. Half my friends on this site are barely here anymore. the friend I cut off won't leave me alone, and I can't sleep at night without my cat next to me. I feel so alone. [UPDATE] i just found out my sister's situation, ive been feeling more alone, i am now juggling 3 object shows whilst failing to storyboard rebooted 1, ive been mentally drowning, and i cant figure my life out, making me bedrot for the past winter break.
most of this is just ranting
