if youndont want to read horrible yap just✿cli ck off im referring to everyone as my at the time friends or old friends because i do not talk to them anymore (or rarely do). if i call them my friends, it's just to save the character count. starting out with the obvious — me and most of my (at the time) friends had gotten banned from tfc i wasn't really going to come back to scratch because i didn't really mind my ban and i was preparing to leave scratch anyways but people have dragged my old friends into my ban came first before my friend's bans, which is understandable because of what was happening. however, it is very baffling to me how people would actually think i would hurt someone in a way that i was claimed to. my ban was not put into detail on scratch because of the severity of what was being accused against me. i know that i can't dictate what people think of me and i don't want to argue against false claims being made. i know what happened and, for now, that is comforting. but, that also leads me to say that it's genuinely baffling how people would willingly believe that i would hurt someone in that way. yes, i absolutely did not like that person but do you really not know me so much that you believe i would go that far? yes, i have made a lot of mistakes, but i would never say that to someone, especially since i have experienced that feeling. even if i did do it, it's horrible that you would drag my old friends into it now, i'm addressing my friends. just because they associated with me does NOT mean that you get to call them horrible things and say they have done horrible actions. holding my old friends accountable for MY actions (or for just knowing me) is rude and unfair. hurting them doesn't achieve what you are attempting to achieve. people are allowed to have their own opinions about people and it's just downright weird that you would punish them for it. i think we shouldn't have gossipped as much as we did but, like i've said, we are allowed to have opinions on people and their actions. the world isn't a constantly happy place where we all get along. we don't have to keep opinions to ourselves. some things they shouldn't have done, but mistakes are frequently made. on a happy note, i am getting help for most of my problems. since my ban, my life has actually been much better. it's given me time to reflect. i am seeing two therapists (they specialize in different areas where i need help & are much better than my last) and a psychiatrist. i am focusing on handling everything that is happening (and what has happened before) in a healthier way. also i won't really be talking more regarding this. if you guys wanna say something nice to me go ahead and i will respond to that
