st5 vol2 spoilers!!! don't scroll down if u havent watched it yet!! i genuinely dont know how to start this off i guess i was happy about some elements of volume 2 like max waking up and the jancy scenes and all of the season 1 callbacks. but about byler. i dont wanna get too personal or too overreactive but will's coming out scene at the end of episode 7 gave me mixed feelings and it left me crying. on one hand, i was ssuper happy about will's courage to come out to everyone and everyone's acceptance towards it. on the other hand, the "he was just another tammy" line made me lose all of my hope in byler. i have unfortunately went through the struggles of crushing on a friend of the same gender *twice* in my life and both of those experiences left me quiet about my feelings which resulted in me being too late. one of them had started dating someone while the other had realized that they were aroace ((which btw good for them I'm not gonna be petty about it)) even though i was happy for the both of them, I was still upset. i had liked my first crush for years and she was even one of my awakenings :,) so when I found out she started dating someone I felt lost. when I met this new girl, I thought I knew for sure that I wouldn't have to experience the same thing. i still had (I still haven't :/ ) moved on from the first girl so i used the second girl as a distraction. later on, before i could even tell her my feelings; she came out to me, telling me she realized that no matter how hard she tried to, she couldn't bring herself to like anyone romantically. it just broke smth in me and i felt so scared (again I am not blaming her for anything whatsoever and I am actually very proud of her for coming out to me <3) at the same time, I was having a hard time accepting myself bc of how much I got bullied for being queer. ofc it didnt seem like I was struggling a lot with my identity if u look at my past stuff (btw DONT look at tjem they're super cringe) but it was only bc I felt more comfy opening up abt myself bc it wasn't real life where I would get bullied. the bullying stopped, I have sorta kinda accepted myself npw and I guess I'm doing a little bit better but it still hurts me. so seeing will having been represented as a character who simply just moved on from his best friend who he has been in love with for years bc of robin's speech makes me feel downgraded. it felt like an insult towards not just me but a bunch of others who have experienced smth similar. I'm not gonna say that coming out scene was all too bad bc it probably did make some people who have had similar experiences happy and I even admitted earlier how I appreciated will's courage and everyone's acceptance. but it still felt very excluding and it definitely made many people upset (like me) you could argue that byler could still possibly become endgame in the finale but i feel like it would be too packed up(if that makes sense? I js don't wanna say rushed) I had sm hope bc they had those 3 movie length episodes that could've shown mike's feelings more clearly to the ga but now that it's already set in stone that they have not done that, I feel like it's not gonna be shown "properly" bc of how much the show is gonna focus more on the party defeating vecna. idk I'm js scared this is gonna end up as another example of queerbait like destiel or reddie(?) or wenclair or any others and I have been relying on this ship sm to actually bring the representation that a lot of people need but from what we've seen idk if its happening anymore </3 so yeah. that's my rant. in the middle of this I stopped typing to call my friends and all of us were crashing out over this whole thing for like an hour :,) ((ALSO IF I DONT RESPOND TO ANY MSGS FROM YESTERDAY ITS BC IM UPSET ABT THIS SORRY</3)
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