As I promised you I’d be back home for the best christmas of our live I had a change of heart because I’m not doing all right my voice trailed off and now I’m wishing I was there at christmas time you moved on and found somebody who finally does everything right now I am stuck between my anger and the blame I put on you and memories that singing carols were never replace and i am terrified of weather, cause I see you when it snows doc told me to travel instead of freezing of my toes and I love you still but the season kind of sucks because I’m still reminded of the place where I messed up and it’s all my fault I guess I have a thing with christmas I’ll drink that eggnog till my friends show up for christmas and I dream each night that Santa will bring you that I will not have but I will not loose now these people laugh but I still have blues and your never coming back so that’ll have to do and I thought sending gifts to people like your dad it would cancel out the others and bring us back to what we had no it is no longer funny, hearing Santa’s belly laugh we once sat by the fireplace, with someone else you do much more then that and I love you still but the season kind of sucks because I’m still reminded of the place where I messed up and it’s all my fault I guess I have a thing with christmas I’ll drink that eggnog till my friends show up for christmas and I dream each night that Santa will bring you that I will not have but I will not loose now these people laugh but I still have blues and your never coming back so that’ll have to do oh that’ll have to do Santa can you please come through oh I hope this season will pass right now but I doubt it and I love you still but the season kind of sucks because I’m still reminded of the place where I messed up and it’s all my fault I guess I have a thing with christmas I’ll drink that eggnog till my friends show up for christmas and I dream each night that Santa will bring you that I will not have but I will not loose now these people laugh but I still have blues and your never coming back so that’ll have to do
