Tw : ED ,, maybe depression?,, gr00ming Last couple months eating has honestly felt like an intense struggle, the thought of eating makes me sick and the last couple of days I was eating and felt like I wanted to barf immediately after and I hate it. Food just dosent sound good I’ve been eating like once a day now and it’s just idk… I can’t describe it or been empty and sad lately I wish I could get better but I can’t . I’m trying to be okay for my friend’s sake but its getting tiring… about 2 weeks ago I along with my friends got threats tha we were gonna get jumped and I got scared (and still am) it dosent help my school dosent allow students to fight back no matter who started it. Any threat of hurt is actually scaring and the fact that I just got out of a really messy situation where I was gr00med by a 15 year old who thought I was 11. Now I learn that the girl who threatened to jump me is being gr00med and now people are expecting me to report even though other people knew WAYYYYY before me and I don’t know why the pressure is on me all the sudden it’s actually destroying me all my friends want me to report it when school starts in January 7th and I’m scared I’ll get hurt again, I don’t want to end up in the hospital I’m scared and tired why can’t I just disappear I’m tired of this. My body dosent feel like my own anymore it feels like im controlling it but it dosent feel like me… i can’t be happy
