oh golly gee another year passed already yap warning ahead! this gets a bit vent-y 2025 was probably the most eventful for me thus far. maybe only because its the only one i still remember living in lmao somewhere around late october one of my friend groups split up due to some controversy. i'm not gonna go into detail but it put a huge downer on my mood. i doubt i'll ever forget what happened or be able to completely move on. i do wish i could've done something to stop it or negotiate instead of just standing still watching it happen, but it's kinda late for that now not only that but you've probably heard that i'm now taking college level courses that i actually have to go to CLASSROOMS for and whatnot. my first glimpse of adulthood that i STILL feel completely unprepared for. it feels like i'm entering a new age that'll make me even more homesick for the past. i don't feel ready at all for the future i haven't changed much as a person. sure, i've gotten better at art, but that's just a given. maybe theres some small amount of character development that i haven't noticed, but i'm still not where i want to be in life and that irks me. people can change so drastically in such a little amount of time but i still remain stagnant. but maybe i'm just asking too much of myself but, on the bright side through all the projects and silly fictional worlds i've made i've gotten to know plenty of supportive, friendly and just all around awesome people. definitely the highlight of 2025 for me is making tons of new friends. i wouldn't be quite the same without the people around me even if 2025 sucked for you i do hope you can find some peace. maybe 2026 will be our redemption arc!! who knows!! happy new year wishing you a bageltastic 2026
