ok hiii this is kinda long but wtv ahaha tw for homophobia/transphobia/religion ig ignore the riggy thumbnail :) -- being in a religious school is so fun when youre queer, amirite??? so i have a bsf i met there. and we're calling her nora for the sake of this story. me and nora met when i was drawing on my math homework during a free period. nora saw and she liked my style. and our friendship grew from there. ughhh now i feel like our bond is kinda fading sighs. so i came out to her last month and she looked at me like i was a stranger. i said "u promised not to judge??" and shes like... "yeah...?". BRO. also in that same convo, i said i had a same gender crush. she said she would end the friendship if it was 2 sided. so a few days later i lied to her. that i didnt like that girl anymore. thats not only the slippery thing in our friendship. i cant even open up abt acc issues (wont mention here on scratch for personal reasons) and i can do that with my other friends...man also ily (platonically) but theres smth abt her that throws me off abt how she "wants to save me from hell" bc im queer or the fact she glazes over the fact i have to finish a manga i + her have been working on even though i have a life OUTSIDE THAT. i rly like her but idk she can hurt me smtimes. she said sorry so many times idk anymore, are you rly learning? but at the same time, i feel like im corrupting her bc she doesnt know a lot of bl/gl animes (like madoka magica or yuri on ice) or EVEN WHAT IT MEANS or she doesnt know any mlm/wlw ships (eg soukoku or homumado). basically, i dont want to "corrupt her morals" bc she grew up in a right wing household. AHHHHH IM SO CONFUSED WHAT DO I DO.
(cont here) nora is also my only friend at skl, fyi. she’s also like “dont be sad all the time!!” ma’am there’s a thing called anxiety -- idk after joining gwdfi in late 2023 (on a diff acc) i felt whole ig...? but after gwdfi shut down and i went to dbd,,, everything fell apart. after doing some thinking, i only place where i dont act like a fake homophobe is online. where i can acc express myself and yk,,, be a weird kid :P. but now im torn apart by dbd and irl. im think of quitting scratch but i've been here for 4 and a half years. so yeah, might quit might not. idk for sure. idk what im doing pls help... /gen ok bye
