i literally hate my life so freaking much istg. i thought my ONLY FRIEND from FIRST GRADE would be nice to me, but no. idk, shes changed so much this year. we used to relate to so much things, and that was cool. but this year i got into kpop, and wof, and pjo, and she jst.. hated it. i feel like she hates my guts i swear. another thing, shes so homophobic i swear. bc of that, i delayed coming out to her. the day before winter break, i did, and it did not go very well. she kept saying i was "disobeying God" and that since i was christian, i couldnt be bisexual. I DIDNT CHOOSE IT. THE SAME "GOD" CHOSE MY SEXUALITY. honestly i dont even want to be christian, its jst so much and i got forced into it by my mom. but on the same topic, i've jst been feeling really down bc my frnd has been really mean lately, and im so tired of it already, so i jst say ok at this point and she says "GOSH it was jst a joke! why r u so sensitive!" THE URGE TO TELL THAT GIRL TO SHUT UP OMG. idk why she wants to make my life a LIVING HELL but i didnt do shi to her. k im sorry, this is a long vent, but two more things: we had a free period on like monday or friday, and i wanted to spend it with her, right? i felt so tired that day, and she kept making "jokes" (mean ones) so i jst ok to evry joke. THEN, this girl says: "my name's elise and im so depressed!" WHAT. WHAT? ISTG I WANNA TELL THAT GIRL TO SHUSH SO BADLY. last one: ik this is kinda cringe, but i told her i wanted to start a yt channel. normal right? she asked me what it was gonna be abt, so i jst said "maybe kpop, or pjo." AND THAT GIRL SAID. OMG. that girl said, in these exact words: "let me guess. its gonna be about WoF, or illit or something." SHUT THE HELL UP OH MY GOD. sure i might seem sensitive for getting sad over that, but if u were in my situation u would say the same. and last thing i swear: i had this "friend" that was always gossiping about me, so i broke up with her, and i thought me and my frnd (from first grade) both hated her, cus she GOSSIPED about me. but uh, no. i wanted to watch a movie with my frnd, so i asked her if she wanted to come and she said yes, ok? and then she walks over to my ex-frnd who talked about me and my 1st grade frnd asked if she wanted to come with us. WHAT THE HELL. thats all, i jst really needed to vent bc stuff is getting really tiring istg.
